Currently Playing The Disco Before the Breakdown By Against Me, Against Me! see related

- The Disco Before The Breakdown <3

Hello everyone who actually reads this. I'm updating this against my will becuase my love is a xanga Nazi lol. So things have been pretty cool  recently went to Hellfest with my love and his brother and his brothers girlfriend. There were some good bands and some other really shitty generic ones but I saw World Inferno again and talked to Mr. Terrycloth again so it was cool. I had fun and it was cool watching my ba-be dance but it was kinda scary seeing all the butch scene chicks...eeeek. Then we went to Warped Tour with Melissa which was awesome cause I love her so much! Shes like the only friend from back in the day that still aweosme and isnt a backstabber...shes my bestest friend ever . Anyway Warped Tour was cool...saw some good bands. The Bled was awesome...I was standing in the front with Spanish Harlem the whole time while my love was dancing. Then Underoath played and they were pretty good too...almost got landed on by some duche bag who dances into the croud but my love saved me from it.

I went to Mount Misery also one night with my love and Speiler and Tony and people like that...thought it was gonna be scary but it was actually really retarded and pointless but it was okay cause I stayed out pretty late just chilling.

Yea so thats basically it...some friends turned out to be shit but what else is knew...if they dont want to be cool with me before they move thats their choice and if others dont care about me or what happends to me then their not really friends....there just following their boyfriend which sucks cause that person use to be really cool. I miss those people but if this is the way it is and they dont want to call me to see me when I've known them for mad long then I guess its not worth it. Once again, I Love you Melissa! You're a trooper for stinking with me for this long lol.

Tomorrow is a show at the Backstage which will probably be really gay and consist of me just smoking tons of cigarettes cause ill be stressed because retarded people are going to be there. Hopefully Melissa will come . That whole like place is just sketchy and something bad always happends there Idk. I can watch my love dance which is cool though.

Some stalker bitch is IMing The Fat...I shall kill her....everyone IM this girl and tell her to quit life cause shes a dirty skank: Hotthstar..shes tryin to seal mah man yo!!! lol

I Love You The Fat

My full name is]: Jennifer Susan Drissel
[height?] 5'5-5'6?
[First thought when u wake up]: I gotta pee
[all I need is]: My hunnah bunny, my true friends and kazaa
[love is]: What I'm currently in
[if I could see one person right now]: My Loveeeeeeee
[I'M afraid of]: Aliens
[I dream about]: Weird stuff...usually I only remember the bad stuff lol

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R -
[been in love]: yesh
[cried when someone died] Yeah
[lied]: Only to people who can't be trusted and who need to be lied to lol

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-

[coke or pepsi]: Pepsi
[flowers or candy]: Candy
[tall or short]: My ba-be is tall so tall

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do u notice first?]: I noticed my babys  puppy dog eyes and his one 0g plug lol
[worst question to ask]: Hey, How bout a hug? (jk lol)
-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?]: The Fat/ Gary/ Pete
[makes you smile]: My Love
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: Its gas....THE FAT
[do you have a crush?]: yesh
[has a crush on u?]: Id hope so lol
[do u miss the most when they are gone]: Chris Chris

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: No lol
[save aol/aim conversations]: Haha only the really good ones or really bad ones...or funny ones
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: Yeah sometimes.... It seems a lot easier...dont have to sit down to pee... no child birth....but then that would make the Fat gay lol

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: Nah son chizill
[been rejected?]: Yeaaa
[rejected someone]: I dunno lol
[used someone]: Noperz
[been cheated on]: Not that i know of?
[done something u regret]: Yeah
[been drunk?]: Yes
[done drugs?]: Yes

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[u talked to on the phone]: The Fat
[hugged]: The Fat
[u instant messaged] The Fat
[that instant messaged you]: The Fat
[you laughed with]: The Fat

-D O .Y O U-
[color your hair]: Its Green right now
[ever get off the damn computer]: UH HUH
[habla espanol]: Si

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[obsessive]: I guess so sometimes
[could u live without the computer?]: I think so
[how many people are on ur buddylist?]: 133 but 37 of those are in the "Fucking Cunts" section... the rest are actual good and nice people lol
[what's your favorite food?]: Candy
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Strawberrys, Bananas
[drink alchohol?]: Sometimes
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Sometimes
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: They both hurt lol  but emotional becuase physical goes away and emotional sometimes doesnt.
[trust others way too easily]: Not at all
[ Current Dress]: My jamies....Pink pants with orange stars and my Nny shirt and my glasses
[ Current Makeup]: Brown eye shadow...smeared black eye liner and mascara and chapstick
[ Current Music]: Sahara Hotnights
[ Current Taste]: Everything bagle
[ Current Hair]: My usual thing
[ Current Annoyance]: My lips are chapped :(
[ Current Smell ]: My room
[ Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing]: At MY loves
[ Current Favorite Artist]: I dunno
[ Current Favorite Group]: The Bled, Against Me!, Leftover Crack, Folly,  and Ive been listening to a lot of hopesfall
[ Current CD's in Stereo]: The Bled

1) Have you ever cut yourself?: Uh huh
4) Have you ever been depressed? Yup
5) Are you depressed now? NAW
6) Have you ever thought about suicide? Yea
7) If you were going to kill yourself how would you do it? Dunno something quick and painless
8) Have you gotten close to trying suicide? Yea
9) Are you suicidal now? Nope
10) Have you ever tried drugs? yep
11) If yes to number 10, which ones? Weed
12) Are you addicted or do you think you're addicted to any drugs? Dont think so?
13) Have you tried alcohol? Yea
14) If you yes to 13, do you drink it often? No
15) If yes to 14, how often? like once every two weeks?
16) Have you ever been physically abused? Naw
17) Have you ever been sexually abused? Naw
18) Are you a survivor of incest? EW fuck no
19) Does your family own a gun? No but thatd be cool
20) Could you get access to a gun if you wanted to: Probably
21) Could you get access to any other weapon? Yea
22) Have you ever wanted to kill someone? Uh huh so manylol
23) If yes to 22, did you ever come close? No lol
24) Was there a shooting in your school? No Reb and Vodka did not attend VSNH
25) If yes to 24, did you actually witness it with your own eyes? No but that would have been funny
26) Have you ever taken anti-depressants? Nope almost had to for a while
27) Have you ever taken any other type of medication? Yea for my tonsilidus
28) Do you have a psychologist? No
29) Do you have a psychiatrist? No
30) Do you like life? Yea most of the time

Currently Playing No Wings to Speak of By Hopesfall see related

- The End Of An Era

Hello Everyone! I'm back from Sweden...It was an interesting trip which consisted of my Dad, Brother, and two of my cousins nearly getting killed in something kind of like a car accident.... My cousin Philip always playing one Sublime song over and over and over again...Being sick the whole time becuase I was depressed and the weather in Sweden fucked up my alergies... And my cousin Magnus beating the shit out of some guy becuase he wouldnt leave his house and knocking him unconcious...It was always raining and every Swedish girl looks like a model and I obviously dont so I was having sudden urges to kill everyone....The trip was filled with 20 hours worth of plane rides and I thought the planes were gonna crash like five times. The whole trip I missed my love and I just wanted to go homeee. The whole time I kept saying that I thought something was wrong at home to my parents and they were telling me everything was fine...but it turns out that I was right. We arrived home at my house at about 4:30?...opened the door...the alarm went off so my dad went to go turn it off...he goes to walk into the kitchen and i here... "HOLY FUCKING SHIT"... we all ran to see what happend...my whole kitchen was fucking trashed and there was water everywhere and everything in there was brown and rusted becuase I guess the water had been in there for a while.... we ran upstairs to see if anything was wrong up there and it turns out a pipe had broke in my upstairs bathroom... so then we went downstairs to check the basement...turns out THAT was completely trashed too...ruining all of the tvs in the kitchen and basement....two computers...a DVD player... a scaner....a printer...two cell phones...all of the rugs which the water touched...a stove...a toilett....a leather couch and two leather recliners...all of the cabinets in the kitchen....two cealings....probably a  lot more that I'm just not remembering. Anyway, It was a lot of shit. So all of us are flipping out and dont know what to do... my mom was crying...my dad was screaming at my mom for making us go away....my brother was yelling at me for unknown reasons (NAZI CHINK) and then I started to cry... and then I called my love to tell him i was home and what happened and I took some of the confusion and stress out on him and we got into a little I guess argument but it was nothing big and we ended it fast. I took a shower at my neighbors house...then went to my loves were we hugged for about 10  minutes then went out and ate some pizza...then we went and bought some needed materials and were told to have fun by the guy wprking at the store to which my love screamed "OHHH I WILL" lol. We went to his house... did the nasty.... then went outside and smoked a ciggarette and then his parents came home and we just watched some TV and talked. That night I stayed in a hotel room because we werent sure if my house was safe to sleep in. Eh.

I was awoken at 6:30 in the morning because of an alarm clock my brother had set so he could go to work....I hung around for a bit...ate some breakfast...then showered and went home and unpacked....and walked to meet my love on Rockaway. His friends Jeanna and The Flop picked us up and drove us to The Fat's house and we listened to a whole bunch of shitty Hardcore bands (lol) and then my love confessed that hes trying to grow a beard and a mostache... (Hehe Love you). Then Mike IMed the Fat and asked us to chill so we did....we walked to The BK lounge and saw Mike, and Ali and then The Fats friend Alex came by and then we went to go see his new house in the Harbor. It was cool...its a reaaaaally nice house and its huge and just really chill. We got in Alex's car again... and went to In and Out to get some Stoges and Beer. My love got a 6 pack and I got a 40. I finished the 40 pretty quick then drank one of his beers and then my love finished the rest of his and everyone at Alex's went to go walk around the Harbor. We were walking around and everyone was peeing at random times and at random places including me. I popped a squat in some persons bush...where I think I peed  on my shoe. We ended up at some golf course which was pretty chill. Me and my baby were lying down on the grass and talking....everything was spinning lol. Mike, Alex and Ali went to go walk around the golf course. We waited  a little bit and they didnt come back and I was feeling like shit so we left and tried to find our way home. Hunnah Bunnah asked a car and we followed their directions...on the way I puked like 5 times...haha The Fat was holding back my hair and then he said "Hey look theres the burger king you ate" lol. After that I ate some Fruit Loops which i had paked hehe and I felt a lot better. We got to the high school and then walked to my loves house where he got hungry and decided to eat me.  lol. So we did some stuff and then cuddled and then my dad came and I talked to my love online for a bit then went to sleep. And here I am now! OH yea...I think im dying my hair green today possibly.

I LOVE YOU THE FAT!!